Mine, Mine Mine Mine

My body has not been mine for 6 years.

First was my pregnancy with Jedi, which lasted most of 2003. He was born in November. At which point, I attempted breastfeeding for a few weeks. Rather quickly, he was moved to formula. I didn’t feel like my body was truly mine, though, because I still had baby fat and jiggles that I didn’t recognize.

I may have had a few months where I felt like myself again before I found out I was pregnant with Buzz. After his birth in April 2006, I breastfed him for 20 very long months. I am here to tell you that when you breastfeed, your body is the farthest from yours that it can be unless you ripped off each of your extremities and handed them over to a passing bystander. We finally weaned, only because the moo ceased to milk.

Lo and behold, the main reason I dried up is because I was newly pregnant with Abby. She has been breastfeeding for almost 13 months now, going strong. Quite literally, she is attached. If I would let her, she would be more than content to stay latched on to me ALL. DAY. LONG.

That’s 6 years.

I am so ready to get my body back.

  1. 5 Responses

  2. By Krystyn on Aug 11, 2009

    Good luck! My oldest daughter was quite easy to wean, and my youngest weaned herself, but I had to work and had daycare in the mix, so the old supply didn’t keep up…and they got too impatient with me.

    I’m pretty sure I haven’t had my body back since Jan 2006..so I feel your pain!
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    By C. (Kid Things) on August 11th, 2009

    @Krystyn, As much as I would LOVE to wean right now, I know Abby isn’t ready. I AM, though. I definitely am.

  3. By Midwest Mommy on Aug 11, 2009

    I am wondering if I will ever get myself back, lol.
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  4. By christy on Aug 13, 2009

    We just weaned ourselves this week….2 weeks shy of my daughter’s first birthday. It was much easier than I had anticipated…being the mom of three kids you surely know how to do – but I’ll tell you what worked for us anyway. Supplementing milk at all of her meals (one at a time, over the course of a couple of weeks) and then only nursing her at bedtime for about a month. Then this week I leave the house at bedtime, so my husband puts her down and I’m not around for her to see/reach for. Three nights so far!

    Best of luck to you!
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  5. By Tyne on Aug 17, 2009

    Ha Ha Ha!!! I love this post, I can sooooo relate. Last December, on our 6th anniversary, I informed my husband that I have been pregnant HALF of our marriage. That doesn’t even include breastfeeding. I am nursing my fourth right now and, though I love it, I am ready for a little me time!
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