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Without challenging the Gods here, last week just may have been the worst week ever. Or that’s what I thought. Jedi’s PICU stay and diagnosis, then our car broke down on Friday. Just to add insult to injury, I awoke Saturday morning with what I randomly assumed was a spider bite on my foot. Covered in dried blood. It was such a trivial ridiculous nothing in comparison, but it was the end of my rope.
Looking for an answer that morning, I did what someone should never, ever do, under any circumstances.
Ever.
I Googled “spider bite”.
This was before 8 a.m., mind you. If I had eaten breakfast yet, I may have lost it. The huge, gaping wounds and rotting flesh and venom-filled limbs in need of amputation I subjected myself to. Spiders, spiders everywhere. Hundreds and hundreds of them. If I didn’t have a phobia before, I do now.
I couldn’t turn away.
Horrible, no good, very bad, nightmares.
That was my perspective. It could have been worse. I still have my foot. My son may have to take medicine, but he should still live a long and healthy life. Our car is still in pieces in our driveway, but it’s fixable with a lot of work. In the meantime, a wonderful friend let us borrow their vehicle until ours is working again. Last week sucked, for sure, but all things considered, it could have been worse.
August 18 2010 ·
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teh internetz Like with twitter previously, I was one of the few remaining holdouts of Facebook. I didn’t want to sign up, because I didn’t think I particularly cared to find people I went to school with, who knew me back when. However, I found myself missing a few connections, a piece of my life from before. And so I finally took the plunge as a beginning first step.
Self-discovery, it starts with Facebook.
While it has been great to reconnect, it’s also forced me into contemplation. Especially when asked what I’ve been up to all this time.
What have I been up to?
I barely travel outside my home, let alone exotic destinations. There is no career that I’m proud of. Most of my friends are words on a screen. In the past 10 years, I have had pregnancy after pregnancy. My stomach extended and deflated. I quit my job to change diapers and chase kids. I yell “no!” so often my throat hurts. I pick up toys and blocks. I clean the house like a maid. I wash dishes and vacuum and sort laundry. I cook dinner. I don’t shower as often as I’d prefer. I’m not allowed to use the bathroom by myself. I am a human tissue, my clothes always stained. I stay in the same pajama pants most days. I feel lucky when I can frame a decent photograph. I check email and twitter for some interaction (validation?), though the concept of social media is still mind-boggling. I spin tales about poop on the internet. I’m a writer, maybe. I’m a mother, sometimes poorly. One step forward, two steps back.
This can’t be it, there has to be more.
What the hell have I been up to?
July 08 2010 ·
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teh internetz My Compaq Mini netbook was sitting on the kitchen counter behind me while I poured the kids each a cup of milk. I turned around in time to see Buzz dangling it’s slim frame precariously over the edge. The next few seconds were in excruciatingly slow motion.
“NOOOOOOO!”, I lunged not quick enough. It fell with a thud to the floor.
My life flashed before my eyes as Buzz darted from the room in a panic. This netbook was my gift from J this past Christmas. Since then, we’ve been inseparable. I write on it. I read on it. It calms me down during rough afternoons and comforts me on long days. It helps me feel connected. Thanks to twitter and the comments left here, both of which I check from my netbook, I don’t feel so much like the lone adult in a child’s world. It keeps me sane. It’s my precious. I would be lost without it.
It can’t be broken. What would I do if it’s broken? Oh my God, WHAT WOULD I DO?
A thin piece on the back, which I assume was important, had come undone so I immediately pieced it back together again a la Humpty Dumpty. I sat it back on the counter and prayed. “Please turn on. Please turn on. Please turn on. I swear I’ll be good, just PLEASE TURN ON.”
I flipped it to it’s on position and waited. It wasn’t making any funny sounds, that’s a good sign I hoped. Then, I saw the beautiful blue light, the signal of life, and my heart did a happy dance. Start Windows normally?, it asked. Oh yes, please.
My precious.
May 21 2010 ·
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teh internetz 1. It seems I’ve been PRE-nominated for a Parents Connect Best Parenting Blog award. If you could maybe spare a minute and click that link or the button in my sidebar to vote for me. You do have to sign up for their site and can then vote for as many people as you like, once a day. It would be very much appreciated.
2. I had a great time with Five for Ten. Thank you everyone who stopped by and commented, it was wonderful getting to meet you all. I’ve been taking a bit of a breather the remainder of the week and our regularly scheduled random postings will begin again on Monday.
3. Thanks to Amber at Making the Moments Count I won a copy of Aidan Donnelly Rowley’s novel, Life After Yes! Now I just hope I can find the time to read it.
Yesterday was my 1 year blogiversary. 207 entries written thus far. I honestly never envisioned enduring for very long when I began this site on a whim last year. I just wanted something strictly for myself again, that I could maybe pass a few minutes with, along with some stress. It’s grown to be that and so much more.
Things I have learned this year in the blogosphere:
1. People like drama. No, really. Some people REALLY like drama. They feed off of it, poised at their keyboards for the next outrage. Which is alright, I guess, but it’s not me. I’m a lot more laid-back than I ever realized before.
2. There may be unforeseen rewards to starting a blog where the main focus is the crazy days as a mother, such as becoming a much more attentive parent. I notice things now that I wouldn’t have given a second thought to before. In fact, every day is blog fodder waiting to happen. Material can be found in the most obscure places, the best stories to tell sneak up on you when you least expect it.
3. It’s disturbing what some people search for on Google.
4. You will get jealous. You will be envious. You will wonder how that person has as many readers as they do and you don’t. You will wonder why you’re never on any “best of” lists. You will wonder if you’re doing it wrong. You will wonder if you’re not sharing enough. You will wonder if you’re sharing too much. You will wonder if it’s worth it. You will get mad and crazy and sad at your computer screen. It’s OK. It’s normal. You will breathe and hopefully it will pass.
5. You will appreciate and love those who stop by to read what you have to say, especially those who cheer you on or lend their support and comment. Thank you for making the past year so very worth it.
